What Disclosure Day Disclosed to Me About Me (~2,900 words; ~18 minutes)

WDDDtMAM, or ... revelations in a minor key? ... (Note: spoilers ahead)

Photo by Ai Takeda on Unsplash (a road sign with an extraterrestrial against a rock roadside embankment)

So ... I have now watched the Spielberg movie “Disclosure Day” (several times - who’s counting?), and ... wow - and so much for not writing anything this week.

I’ll expand that wow (“I’ll see your wow and raise you an “oh gosh””) shortly, but first some context about my life.

My life has included:

• sharing guided relaxation with my (adoptive) family using tapes my father brought back from his banking job in the 1960s, and during that time knowing that everything is energy, and being aware of the hypocrisy of what we termed “Sunday christians” (who do NOT deserve the capitalisation … I refer to them now as neochristians or pseudochristians [they know nothing of, and have no connection to, true Christianity, in my opinion [IMO]), the leaders at church camps who taught children how to kill with punches (I kid you not - that is fair dinkum), and the flaws in their permission-to-abuse-animals beliefs … later I would get to know their active role in the genocide against my people during the colonisation of this continent (Bandaiyan, using a word from the north west, but also known as Australia), their rabid misogyny, and their hate of LGBTQIASB+ people that they made endemic which was a key part in the deaths by suicide of half a dozen of my friends … my experience of child sexual abuse (CSA) didn’t come from them, but I saw what their authoritarian abuse of children did, and in recent years have been horrified by the scope of their CSA abuses;

• in the 1970s, leaving neochristianity for Buddhism (my main teacher was a work colleague from Thailand who had spent six months as a monk, including three months in the jungle - and later there was a notable moment in a TV series from the 90s [here, in Australia] where members of several religions were interviewed on one topic each week: when the week came to discuss the concept of Deity, the two Buddhist monks said they were so focused on trying to live a good life they had no time to consider whether Deity existed or what form Deity might have), but I also found the (grossly over-commercialised and spiritual bypassing plagued) New Age and had my first UFO sighting - and I had no ontological shock about extraterrestrials (ETs) … my attitude was, as with would be teachers, entities purporting to be Guides, etc, and the ETs: are they acting for the benefit of all Sentient Life (including animals, the spirits of the land, and life elsewhere in the Universe) as what I termed (from my reading) Gardeners of Universe or not (noting that quite a few ancient myths were portrayed as being depictions of ET misbehaviour … and illustrations of the very real problem of deification of the powerful), I learned to project loving energy (by willpower, not visualisation);

• in the 1980s I learned more formally about these and other practices (with the occasional problem), and started to personally experience the ills of world at hands of humans;

• in the 1990s I grew into Paganism, refined my psychic/spiritual work at changing the world and expanded that to include more human rights/community activism (which I had started in the 1970s) and also learned of the need to address political problems and developed my skills at that, and found that the metaphysical and physical problems and problem people were, in fact, linked;

• in this century my life has included long term relationships and families, worse work problems, a stack of health problems - mine and those I loved including I am (probably) AuDHD and definitely am part of the Stolen Generations, further refinement of my psychic/spiritual work, and witnessing the destruction of the USA and through what was created there, much of the world by the patriarchy/ultra-elites acting through christian dominionists/christo-fascists/christian nationalists and capitalism & neoliberalism, which illustrates that change must be accomplished BOTH spiritually and materially.

And now, at this late stage of my life, when I feel like the “SS Ohio” getting dragged into Malta’s Grand Harbour in World War (part) Two, comes “Disclosure Day”.

I’m not going to try to analyse the broader meeanings, etc of this movie - others with far more ability and talent than I have already done so (and I would particularly commend Breaking the Silence, The Maze to Metanoia (Meredith Spearman), Inquiry with Kelly Chase, The Unidentified Felt Object (Courtney Buterbaugh), and Kaney’s Weird Files to you), so I am going to focus on the personal impact - and there will be spoilers.

I’ll begin with being glad that I didn’t watch this in a theatre - I would have been overwhelmed. Having bought it, I could stop and have a break when I needed to.

My first insight was something I have been wondering about in recent months: did I have contact as a child?

I have known for much of my life that I was hiding something from myself from my childhood, and wondered if I was hiding some CSA - but why hide part of that and be conscious of rest? I possibly could have done so because of the hidden part being worse, but when I found out I am probably AuDHD (I can’t get any help or benefits because I am too old, so I am going to save my family the expense and stress of a pointless formal diagnosis), I realised that explained the three years that were largely blanked out.

However, after watching bloody Fantasia, I had waking nightmares about T Rex coming along the street, stopping, turning to look in, seeing me (I used to keep the blinds open - I hate not being able to see the stars at night), and eating me . That was partly, I now recognise, a traditional shamanic power journey, but now, after watching “Disclosure Day”, I realise I did have ET contact as a child - and that was probably reptilian, or include reptilian contact.

I suspect my autistic overwhelm, though, was so severe I was of little value to the ETs, so they didn’t continue.

I have more to work on with that - including the range of entities, and the fact that most of the contact was likely constructive except for my autism.

Second: I have realised that I am, to quite an extent, a battery to recharge ET (and the wellbeing of all Sentient Life) aligned workers/agents/allies … and their craft/device - mostly at a distance. This is why I have always been a little ... “off” with my alternative healing - my focus is a quick zap/energy refill, rather than finding and healing problems. (I am, thought, still also a world walker, earth energy sensitive, and an empath.)

Thirdly: I have had earth based NHI - reptilian - contact and First Peoples heritage so I can be a bridge between all earth-based and ET cultures.

On that, in “Sand Talk: How Indigenous Thinking Can Save the World” (which I first wrote about here), Tyson Yunkaporta provides a useful analogy of intermediaries between cultures by referencing the three types of Gauls at the time of Caesar’s invasion of then-Gaul now-France:

• those who had been fully assimilated into the invader’s culture - the toga-wearing Gauls;

• those who had not been assimilated at all - the long hairedd Gauls; and

• those who have a foot in each camp - the short haired Gauls.

From the book:

“The short-haired Gauls, on the other hand, carried enough fragmentary Indigenous Knowledge and struggled enough within the harsh realities of transitional Romanisation to be able to offer some hybridised insight—some innovative sustainability tips to the doomed empire occupying their lands and hearts and minds. Of course, simplistic categories that rank occupied Peoples by degree of domestication do not reflect the complex realities of contemporary Indigenous communities, identities and knowledge. They certainly do not work in Australia. Our complex history as Australian First Peoples does not align with most criteria demanded for authentication and recognition by colonists.”

I feel that I am the modern, earth vs ET equivalent of the short-haired Gauls - but there are also complexities, as that author warns about.

Fourthly (and this is more a confirmation than a new insight), I am, in the terminology I use on my main blog, an agent for what I term BPM - Balanced Positive and spiritually Mature. I am striving to make the world a more balanced and mature place, as do the protagonists in the movie, and I was able to demonstrate this from an early age (e.g., out flying a threat when lucid dreaming as a child).

There are, however, agents for the nonBPM - out of balance and/or immature people who are, deliberately or unintentionally, making the world a less balanced and more immature place. One of those was the psychopath who did so much damage to me in the 1980s.

Addressing their harm is not a series f conflicts in isolated areas - it is not disclosure plus separately human rights and political advocacy. It is ALL CONNECTED, and happening simultaneously, and to be effective we need to expand our knowledge sources.

Those with an interest in the UFO/UAP/ET field MUST consult with experiencers because experiencers have a form of expertise.

Those who wish to raise human rights issues (including and perhaps especially in the context of UFO/UAP/ET) MUST consult with human and other rights experts - some of the commentary I have read or heard over the years has been lacking in an even fundamental understanding of human rights, and has floundered in truly embarrassing ways.

The discussions have improved in recent years, but still fail to acknowledge that these topics have been considered by experts over the centuries, leaving room for improvement.

As an example, I made the following comment in response to part of the interview of Courtney Buterbaugh by The Witching Hours on YouTube:

“I have a few thoughts on the question about pre-life agreements allowing abuse and rights at 1:17:13 - and my apologies, but YouTube won’t let me post URLs.

My view is we do undertake planning before incarnation - planning involving our Guides AND OUR HIGHER SELF (“SOUL”) before we incarnate - on ALL aspects of our life, not only ET interactions.

In terms of the broader context, our spiritual growth is the main aim of that planning, BUT:

- I think it was Jennifer Lisa Vest who made a comment in a YouTube video about why we choose to incarnate during an apocalypse that we can sometimes be like an athlete who wants to test their skills to the limit, but in the personal growth field, so we may take on too much (right now I consider I did when planning this life, but that is other areas of my life, not the ET parts). To put that another way, we ALL are at risk of a case of Dunning-Kruger effect when planning our lives;

- there is already a very well developed field of the rights of Sentient Life which applies here - going back to Jainism (which predates Buddhism) at least, and likely further. This is, IMO, far better acknowledged outside the USA than in it (I am outside the USA), but the sorts of rights described by Franklin Roosevelt as the Four Freedoms, outlined in the Universal Declaration of Human Rights in 1948 (and subsequently codified into enforceable international law by the Twin Covenants) and further refined by subsequent covenants. Humans already have rights in abduction experiences. ETs also have rights which are being broken when they are shot down or abused by humans. There are, however, issues around enforceability of those rights - but, importantly, in any human-ET interaction, both sides morally and spiritually HAVE rights;

- ethically/spiritually, all beings are accountable for their behaviour. That also means that ETs who cause fear or distress are, at the very least, guilty of sloppy / unprofessional / incompetent conduct, just as humans experimenting on animals should be held accountable for the distress and suffering they cause. Again, there are problems with enforceability, but the rights do exist;

- specific agreements on specific topics have a number of benefits, including making rights better known, and using wording that applies rights to specific situations - the OHCHR has a list of the core international human rights treaties, and that includes the Twin Covenants (the ICCPR and ICESCR), CEDAW (the Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Discrimination against Women [which I was hoping would be supplemented by a convention against gender apartheid[), and conventions about racism, children’s rights, and against “torture and other cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or punishment”;

- An agreement about experiencer rights would have similar benefits, but there are issues about who has the right to negotiate the agreements (including whether the USA had a right to make an agreement that affected the rest of the world), and enforcement (which is a common problem in international law). However, IRRESPECTIVE of whether a formal agreement exists or not, experiencers and ETs ALREADY have rights - rights that may not be recognised by any jurisdiction, but still morally and spiritually exist, and can be used to challenge behaviour - if the experiencer is able to think to do so, which is not always the case. And, subject to the rights of people to sovereignty over their land, ETs are entitled to challenge humans for their abuses;

- Finally, we have the right to change our mind - otherwise we become abused slaves to our mistakes.

And I agree that change in consciousness has had an impact on this.”

In terms of the (often unplanned - just an outcome of inadequately handled differences initially) struggle between BPM and nonBPM, bodily form does not matter, only function: is the function of any individual form within a generic type (whether ET or earth or other) promoting and acting for more spirituality/higher consciousness and in favour of Sentient Life, or against? Fence sitters are against …

Finally, some random comments on the film’s content:

• as a Spiritualist trained medium, I am aware of possession, overshadowing, etc, and sharing knowledge/awareness - such as Margaret demonstrates when she frees Daniel from Wardex, after he is captured at a motel, by passing on personal messages to Noah (and incidentally appearing to him as his passed wife, Jocelyn - which is a detail I have not experienced in real life) and some other Wardex personnel. However the forced version of that when Noah uses “the device” (referred to as “diving”) is new to me.
  The device reminds me of a crystal, which I have used to aid communication (and heal people and places, meditate, journey, etc);

• I have had - and hate - panic attacks like Margaret’s when she is on the train … as have many people. I’ve learned more about managing them in this last year;

• the issue of an unknown (ET) language reminds me of what is termed “light language”, which a friend of mine from the 1980s used to speak (but which I could never understand), but the Zetas also do use clicking as a backup/alternative to telepathy, and I would recommend Paul Hamden at The Zeta Connection for more on that;

• as already mentioned, the risk of deification is a real one;

• any disclosure will not be just two “special” people - as others have pointed out. In fact, it isn’t just two people - and there are a few indications that those who have already had an effective extent of disclosure could number over a billion (see here for example);

• the use of objects (including, in the case of this movie, a childhood house) as a key to directing consciousness is actually fairly standard magickal practice;

• when the ETs are shown as animals, it is most likely that, in reality, they don’t actually change their shape: it is easier and more efficient to alter the perception/memory in our mind - much as Margaret did when rescuing Daniel;

• a sensation as one passes through an object is common in astral or etheric travel, but the description of the sensation as a warm shower is new to me, but could fit a window (same composition as quartz crystal) quite well;

• the ring of lights about their faces when Margaret and Daniel were re-experiencing their childhood contact is something I haven’t read or heard of, but it was very triggering for me - and brought to mind my loathing of anything going near my eyes (although there is also a past life reason for that, and shortsightedness was partly caused so I could have the protection of glasses as a shield between myself and others);

• the brutish thuggishness of some of the Wardex people is a reflection of a very real problem in this world - one that comes from us, not ETs, and is a problem that we MUST contain, stop, and reverse;

• I now have a much deeper, innate (organic?) understanding of the need to heal those who have abused me and others in this life - especially the sociopaths and the one psychopath, but I also know that I cannot and need not (I do not have that duty alone) do that all by myself, and it must be done in a wway that provides true justice and accountability for the sake of the abusers in the long term as well as the survivor-victims, which is standard human rights and human dignity knowledge.

I am likely to change parts of this post over time, as I am quite unhappy with much of this, but am also feeling I must get it up …

I may deliberately inserrt typo’s to help show this ain’t A I.

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